the ball is round

I hate it that Manchester United did not include Manila in its Asian Tour. Bugger, this basketball-crazy country whose obsession with the game is inversely proportional to the performance of its national team, even against neighboring countries who'd rather play football.

robed

Great.

Checking Facebook every hour or so, going out for two-hour lunch, and then leave work an hour early.

These things make for an employee of the month.

***

The thing about my job (which I can't really tell if positive or negative) is that when it rains, it pours, and when the sun shines, it's scorching hot. I'm not good at making up idioms, but I hope I got the point across.

I wish it starts raining soon. I like being wet.

going through the motions

Every single night the same arrangement

I go out and fight the fight.

Still I always feel the strangest strangement

Nothing here is real, nothing here is right.

- Buffy Summers (words by Joss Whedon)

***

I'm such a big liar. Today a colleague asked me why I don't shave my beard (which really are just small stumps of hair on my chin) and I said it's for a rather practical albeit absurd reason - I wanted to look more mature so as to be taken seriously because, and this I told her with the conviction of an innocent man about to be hanged, no one in this business is taking me seriously.

It is partly true, because at this age (24) I am still often mistook for a college student. But the real reason is: I just forget to shave. Every morning I wake up like a zombie, and go to work without a care any more what I look like or what I do. I don't keep my planner anymore - the last entry reads March 2009. I'm in this zombie-like state for quite awhile now, and getting up just keeps getting harder and harder with each passing work day.

And like a real zombie (if there was one), I am seriously hungry for brains.

But yeah, while I'm still here, my issue is because I want to be taken seriously. Right.

***

My curse is I can lie with a straight face. And I ardently believe in its truth to sustain it, so that sometimes it turns to reality.

me

Would it be selfish if tomorrow I just think of my own happiness and just do something that I really like doing?

Would it be so selfish of me if I just dropped everything, stopped working, and follow my dreams?

Cold water

What a strange day.

Sometimes I wonder if I'm just naturally a bad person, or I'm unbelievably good at pretending that I am enjoying people's company.
***
Darn.

I wish I can talk to someone about Sheldon's and Penny's future.

I wish I could laugh about Liz Lemon and her turn as Bijou during lunch breaks.

I wish I could reminisce about the Scooby Gang and Joss Whedon's fantastic work during coffee breaks.

I wish someone is as excited about next year's World Cup as me at the elevator.

God I wish there was someone else who reads Naruto in the building.

Are these things to much to ask?

hell week

You thought you don't have them anymore as soon as you step out of the university, but yeah you still do. In fact it should go longer to hell months, and for most people, they experience hell years.

I'm having one for about a month I think. Today was the second day. I need something else.
***
I think Microsoft's efforts in their Live services are unjustly underrated. If you're a solid PC user like me, you won't believe how ridiculously integrated it is to your desktop that it can show your Media Player music as status in Window Live Messenger. You can sync your Hotmail account to you Outlook, too, and back up your files in its Skydrive (at your own risk), even save your Office documents in it like a normal drive.

Most offices don't block it off their networks too. And it looks so efficiently tidy.

frustrations

This is one of those moments, when I wish I could just walk away from all these. When I wish I can just hail a cab to the airport, fly myself to Siam or Berlin, and start a new life - new look, new job, new set of friends, new attitude, a new name even if allowed. 

But that might just lead to another epic failure. I think it would be better if the earth simply opened up and chew me down. My bones would be so crunchy. 

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Bakit? I myself made a rate card. All on my own :-(